A Cobwebbed Beauty

There she stood in the twilight, ready and waiting at the street corner.

I was pushing my overflowing grocery cart though Wal-Mart when I saw her.  I know her well.  I was in eighth grade when we were first introduced.  She has a knack for catching you off guard.   A way of showing up when you least expect it.  She appears as an angel of light, but her house is the sure way to Sheol.  There are times I can ignore her.  When I can walk right on by without giving her second thought. But this was not one of those times.  This time I could not resist her.

One glance of her skin was all it took.

So begins the blog post, “My Encounter with the Woman at the Corner,” in which the author, Rebekah, details the ever-present temptation to covet the photoshopped beauty and glamour that winks at men and women from the glossy covers of magazines, to made idols of our bodies, to pretend as if we can stop the clock of aging. Her excellent post, which you will not regret taking the time to read, reminded me of an older post that I had written, “Cobwebbed Beauty.” In both of these posts, there is the reminder of the God who redeems our past, and gives us something far better than a body that is candy for the eyes and pride for the soul.

Cobwebbed Beauty

She’s clad only in a white, wet, silk blouse, as if just caught in a downpour. Her back is slightly turned toward the camera, the curves of hip and breast beckoning the onlooker toward their soft surfaces. Her dark eyes are cast downward, the lips slightly parted. Beads of water decorate her dark, exposed skin. She is 27 years old.

I look at her picture a couple of times a week. It hangs, poster size, crisscrossed by cobwebs, on the wall of one of the businesses on my delivery route. Near the picture sits a Hispanic woman, her face a patchwork of wrinkles, her body hunkered over a sewing machine, arthritic fingers stitching together tarps for a living. Her name is Mary. And she is the woman in the picture.

Several years ago, she showed this picture–but a wallet-sized photo then–to one of her young coworkers, who had it blown up and taped to the wall. There it has remained all this time, candy for the eyes of men, and liquor for the soul of Mary, to help numb the pain of lost years and fading beauty. I don’t judge her. For who among us does not desire to imbibe on memories of better, more lovely days, when youth was in full flower and aging seemed an impossibility.

I don’t think Mary and I are the only ones who have icons of an idyllic past we like to keep hidden away or publicly display. A photo of a younger you. A sports trophy. A broken wedding ring. A nameplate that reads, ‘Prof. Chad L. Bird’. Our hearts are half Amish at times, hankering to live in the past, for we dislike the present or fear the future. But therein lies a grave danger, for nostalgia can easily become the gateway drug to despair.

Jaroslav Pelikan famously said, ”Tradition is the living faith of the dead, traditionalism is the dead faith of the living.” The same could be said about individuals and their own past. For our personal histories can be a thesaurus of life and experience from which we draw language to more fully articulate the meaning of our present and future. Or it can be a dusty antique shop whose aisles we haunt and whose memorabilia we venerate.

The forklift driver where Mary works recently told me that she has even more revealing pictures from her youth, but she won’t share any more of them. Maybe in her advancing age she’s leaning more toward modesty. Or perhaps, better yet, she’s learning contentment about who she is now instead of who she once was.

We have all had moments, perhaps years, in the past when life and happiness seemed at their peak. We wish we could freeze time and live then forever. But life doesn’t work that way. Unless we want to live in unreality, to pretend an existence, we must embrace the ebb and flow of life. And find in that ebb and flow, the joy of living every moment in the presence of our God who doesn’t change–who redeems our past, enriches our present, and ensures the hope of our future.


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6 thoughts on “A Cobwebbed Beauty

  1. Sam Pakan on said:

    Even better than I remembered! Thanks!

  2. Nice descriptive phrasing, especially “half Amish.”

  3. Chad, kinda funny story…I was up earlier than usual this morning getting ready to leave for my son’s track meet. One of the things on my list of things to do before I left was to delete this post from my blog because I kind of panic about my more personal posts from time to time. Lo and behold, I open WordPress, see your new post, except I was reading my words. I laughed out loud because, well, I pretty much had to leave it after that. So I shut my laptop and continued on . Anyway, thank you. Still in shock that you would read or share my words or let them reside along side yours. You are one of my favorite writers and you inspire me.

    And as far as “A Cobwebbed Beauty”, I remember this one from reading your archives and it is one of the ones that really stood out. Like Phil, I love the phrase, “Our hearts are half Amish at times.”

    • That is a funny story! I’m glad I was able to snatch your article from the flames of the delete button before it was too late. It’s an excellent post. When I read it yesterday my first thought was that it would dovetail well with my own post. Thank you for such exemplary writing, and the deep reflections about life that undergird it.

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